Today was kind of surprising!
I didn't sleep the whole night, too affected with the money issue and I was analysing how I actually behaved towards my parents. I realise now that I was too rebellious and disrespectful, so I resolve to relax and gain back my lost composure.
This morning, as promised, I went with my mom to shop for groceries and food (thank God!) and I bought some juice, oranges and a loaf of wholemeal bread. Nothing else. Realised I did not buy myself lunch, so I settled for the bread and drank the juice. For dinner today, I had nothing but bread and juice again. Some coleslaw, too.
This evening, at 5.30pm, I followed my mom again to buy some things we missed earlier this morning. It was good... I got to buy a whitening lotion (it's been 3 months) and a magazine, with a promise to pay her back 7 bucks soon.. I will.
We went to KFC to buy my brothers food and then I saw a poster, saying that they required somebody to work and damn it, I was like, "Uhnm, can I work here?" I was so inappropriate. I was wearing this stupid hand-me-down shorts and very very baggy tee and looked so fucking nerdy cuz I was wearing my glasses. I thought they would reject me, considering that I was so UNPREPARED, but they said, "Yes, you can fill up this form, and I can call up the manageress."
Manageress. Cool, how politically correct.
After she droned on and on about the work and everything, I was like, "Fine, I can do it." Haha, she can just say anything and I'll go fine. She asked me why did I want this job and I told her my family was having a financial problem. I wish I could tell her my basic needs weren't met but that was too over the top, but that was how I felt that time. Some sort of abused or uncared for, in some ways.
I want to be able to wear "normal" clothes. I want to be able to look at something and say, "Yes, I can work to get it" instead of "Shit, I don't think Dad has the money." I want to be able to eat nutritious foods.
You can say that I have to say byebye to watching fun shows like That 70's shows and everything, but I am so glad I can still watch other fun shows that starts after 10pm!
YAY FOR ME!
I want to tell my dad now... HE SAID I COULD NOT GET A JOB.
Now I can. Actually I am not hired yet. I have to go for the trial and all that crap on Monday at 4pm and work for three days for free for them to judge me on my performance..then they'll think about hiring me or not.
PLEASE PRAY THAT I CAN GET THIS JOB!!! I NEED THIS BADLY. BADLY. And I am willing to work EXTRA HARD now that I have done my exams. PLEASE PRAY FOR ME.
I have to be perfect on Monday..Tuesday..and Wednesday.. I need this job. And guess what? I will be bonded for at least 6 months, whether I like it or not.
I'm soo going to start planning today! Planning how to use my time wisely and stuff..this is so exciting. IF I CAN GET THIS JOB, I'LL BE LIKE A FREAKING hundred-aire! And I'd be freaking working my FIRST job at the age of 15!
And I'm sooo excited!
8:03 p.m. - 2004-10-14
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