freakymandy's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- body aching My head hurts. It's not about the lack of sleep. I slept enough. 7 hours. Just the noise is stinging my brain. Can't you turn down the volume of your voice, dear mom and brothers? You are talking so joyfully, but you sound like you're trying to pick up a fight. I have to moan and groan now. Please excuse me. Even the light is hurting my eyes. I have to close the window and put the curtains close together. The scent of the burrning blue candle in my room is intoxicating, yet it makes me feel nauseous. Giddy. I think my stomach is a size of my fist now. I can't seem to take in more than 400 kcals at a time. Today I managed to get in 600 kcals before 5pm. Good progress, but migraine is on the rampant. Is my head bleeding or something. I feel something oozing out from it. Ahh, maybe it's just my imagination. I feel like I am split into two halves. Frequently I have myself talking back at me, I have different sides of me, totally different from one another. I don't think I have multiple personality disorders, but who knows. I have nothing in my pocket, only chewing gums, dont tell me to see a psychiatrists..they're all bullshits, I don't trust them at all. They're the most unkind, and insensitive people I know. A waste of money. Ouch. 4:09 p.m. - 2004-08-10 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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