I hate the way
You look at me in the eyes
Like I have done something wrong
when I have done nothing at all
I hate the way
You notice every single move I make
And hurt me when I make a mistake
I hate slash love
the way
you are
abandon me
because i dont need you
to be with me
and tell me what to do
and how to
be with me
because i cannot decide
whether i need you
or whether i should leave you
behind
because you don't give me
the happiness you used to shower on me
but now you abuse me
and now you control me
because you made me need you
you made me love you
Ana, you have made me embrace you
without you
who am i
and what am i left with
with you
who am i
and what is left of me?
emptiness
silence
denial
fatness
disgust
sadness
shame
distortion
i know i hate you
you know i do
but i can't let you go
and you won't let me
i need you
because i have needs
i love you
because i need to love
i hate you
because im full of hate
im like this
because of you
you're the one that
i love
i hate
i miss
i abuse
i lose
and i crave
the hurt you put me through
because it shapes who i am
a massive wreck of a being
8:52 p.m. - 2004-08-06
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