oh my god. thank you for your belated birthday wishes! i dont know people really cared. but yeah, im happy!
i guess i changed the layout of the diary because im no longer as depressive as last year and I actually feel better about myself now after reflecting and looking back on my worth and realise i can do much better than what i did , which was to base on my worth on my weight... but im still worried about it now, but definitely lesser than half the anxiety i had for last year. now i can eat and feel okay about it, instead of having strange rituals like only eating the edge of a bread and leaving the white part alone, and only eating things that are labelled with nutritional value to gauge my calorie intake... it's all not as important to me now.
i have better hobbies too.. like listening to music, running, surfing the net and having Alicia to talk to on the phone HELPS a lot... before I used to feel so fucking lonely and weird and strange but now I feel uber normal and I feel like I'm stronger now... though I have to be careful with my bulimarexia tendency.
How's valentines for everybody? Happy to say, I am going out with a guy named James for V day and I hope we have more chemistry with more dates. Yeah, he's just a date.. nothing more! *prances around*
Will update more when I have more things to talk about..
12:13 p.m. - 2005-02-07
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