All I can say that today is VERY... ok, at the end of this day, I'd be glad for the peace to SLEEP.
The whole family was cleaning the house. Our house is actually clean and my room is considerably OK. But hey, my mom woke me up at 4am and FORCED me to clean my room. And then after dinner when I felt so perfect and filled up nicely, she DRONED ON AND ON AND ON to my ears and it stung. Moms... I wonder if they ever get tired of REPEATING the same old thing.
"Mandy, why are you so lazy? Mandy, get off the computer. Mandy, your hair is too long! Mandy, GET UP! Mandy, what do you want when I go out? Mandy, I am tired of speaking to you! Mandy, go out WITH ME! Mandy..."
Oh my god.. all in a day's work. I should have gone out to a bookstore and browse through gazillions of books and runnnnn away from this. It's like a radio blasting my ears and yet I have no right to shut it down.
:D Whatever. I'm happy. It's all in good intention and my cats.. damn mating periods. I told them off today.
So brave of me today to be so sarcastic to my mom... Ok, I smile thinking about what I did. It was all good.
"Mom..I've done it. YES. Ok. Stop it. You, go to sleep... have a sweet dream... You deserve it."
"Mandy, trying to get away from me,eh? Sorry, I won't sleep until you clean your room. It's so dirty, your friends' are CLEANER."
"Mom, NO. They are much messier than me."
"What kind of friends do you have?! And you wanna follow them too?! Follow good examples not those lazy asses you have for friends! What are.."
Oh my god. I forgotten whatever she said after that. At the end of the torture, I told her..
"Mom, I wish I'm deaf..hahahaha"
"You never listen. God, what a daughter I have. Ok, I'm off to sleep. You... ahhh!"
Ok. Yay! She went off to sleep..and I was too. 4am in the morning she WOKE ME UP. She must have had a bad nightmare.
I ate one whole fish for dinner. Some veggies. Not much carbs. Planned to go and work out but too pissed and too preoccupied with cleaning out boxes of papers. From my first school year up till now. Believe it or not, I still keep one of the first notes I got in life.. and it was so cute.
A very old friend of mine : God, I hate school.
Me: Really? Why?
Her: Look at our teacher. She hates me.
Me: No! Let's be happy.
Her: I can't.
And a lot of scribblesssss. Kiddish scribbless... kiddish bitching :)
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Tons of love notes. Tons of "why I like him" lists. Tons of secrets. Tons of hate notes I wrote about everyone I was angry with that time. Tons of music lyrics. Tons of chat transcripts.
I still print out emails and read them at night. I have all my ex boyfriends'. Geee. So sweet, yet so hurtful. IT WAS SO PATHETIC! but that's what you call hopelessly romantic?
Words like sweetie..sweetheart.. love.. don't worries.. It's all good. To be in love is such a great thing!
Speaking of that, I just crushed with a guy I met on the Internet. Lol. I won't lie about it. I probably crush with every guy I have chemistry with on the net.
Elliot! We talk in poetry :) It's so romantic and funny. He told me jokes too. I feel so happy when I get to know people like him, but it's impossible of us being together.
I don't believe in Internet love, but of course, I feel good when people actually find love on the Net.
Elliot :) He has such a spunky hairstyle and he plays guitar... *ok, I feel like I'm melting*
It feels good that he says he likes me too. *insert cheesy smile*
I wish love is this easy. I'm sure this is not love Im feeling. Maybe it's lust. It is LUST.
:) But it's okay, as long as I'm happy. I spent the day browsing through pictures from sorryeverybody.com and it was so emotional.
Today's a good day. Great dinner.
8:24 p.m. - 2004-11-09
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