After being on hiatus for so long, due to the lousy computer and the undeniable laziness, I am here, with so many updates you guys are going to break your necks after this!
11 girls are going to be detained in school in the same year because they failed to make the cut. One of them is my best friend, Farrah! But she told us not to feel sad for her, because she said she deserved it. As much as I would like to go aww with her, I don't, because she's weird. How can she not get any passes out of 8 subjects, I am surprised. There is such thing as little effort and no effort at all! She gets below 30 for all her subjects and I am wondering how much effort it needs to get that low. She studies a lot, but probably thinks too much about her boyfriend.
Speaking of boyfriend, I WANT a boyfriend. If I have one, I'm gonna study so hard for him.. like I did before and it worked so well. But to have a boyfriend is a different thing. If I have one, I'd give him EVERYTHING. He's gonna be my night and day, and will follow me around like a virus in the head. I'm going to love him so much, maybe I won't miss my sleeping much. I'm gonna get dark eye rings obsessing over him and I'm gonna make him cute little pressies and smother him with kisses and hugs. Whoever he is, I LOVE HIM.
I like this guy. Jamieeeeee, do you know where I exist in this world? Yooo hooo. Stupid asshole, tomorrow I'm meeting you in a group date for dinner, I hope I'm gonna like you and not find some stupid excuses to be turn off by you... I am so captivated by his striking eyes and his funny sense of humor. I want to hug him and kiss him and mm make love to him. Waaa, I love him so much, I don't want to grow up. I wanna go waaaa!!! at the sight of him and go bonkers if he says he likes me too.
I DON'T WANT TO GROW UP. I want to love him like how I love my ex boyfriend, that puppy kind of love. Adult-rated love is stupid..because break ups are always hard. Not to say kid's breakups are easy.. but there's lesser hurt. I want to hug him so bad, I want to kiss him hard on his full lips and I want to obsess over him. In fact, I dreamt about him. I can't wait till tomorrow.
Okay, stop it, Mandy. (JAMIEEE!! WAAHH.) You're getting on my nerves, self. You guys make me wonder why you are still reading me? Am I not boring you? My life's such a kiddie rollercoaster. Maybe you're just here because I'm so full of dramas and exaggerated things to talk about.
Hmm. I bought a new skirt! I bought a new skirt! Weee.
It's been so long since I've listened to some old songs like, Maamaa I lovee youu... mama I caree.. and Viva forever... where's my spice girls?! I miss them! Where's my baby spice? She's my favourite. I love her ponytails. Speaking of which, I have them on now. I love my ponytails :( I think the virus has got into me. The doctor said I have a virus in my blood and HE TOOK SO MUCH OF MY BLOOD! I didn't come to school for so long... and all the food I ate have been tasteless. Today I had fish and chips and it tasted like plank.
I want to kiss Jamie and tell him he tastes so good although he will taste like plank too.
I read darkdoll's diary entry today and it was about, "Why lonely people don't get together so they won't get lonely?"
Sometimes I think I'm lonely, but maybe it's for my own good? Ordinary girl talks irk me and rather than insulting them, I might as well mix with the people who I know don't degrade others to make themselves feel good and naturally gives out the happy vibe. I want to build up my esteem and gossiping about others might give me the fake confidence, but that's not what I want. People can feel good without making others feel bad.
And the Bitch that goes around obsessing over my life and telling others about it, I think is being detained. That, is so deserving of her. She might as well mind over her stupid plumetting grades than spreading stuff about me. Girls like her, I don't understand.
Oh ok, I should reach the end of my entry today. I love boys, and I love Jamieeee. Oh my god, his eyes are so brown. I want to kiss him hard on his lips. Waaaa.
Okay.
8:46 p.m. - 2004-10-30
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