Today I felt so out of place. Because of my increased weight, I found it hard to get use to using the space I had and gosh, I was struggling just now. I knocked on some people down... it felt so bad. When I were skinny, I did not need to worry because I could just slide in between some narrow space.
I'm just happy I'm losing weight now, currently on Atkins anyway, and when I thought about what I had experienced today... I just could not give up at all. Either this, or I'd forever be unhappy and never get it done and past with.
My self esteem grew the most at my highest weight. How strange.. maybe it's because I have to rely on my inner self beauty to assure myself that I am worthy of living and I am more than just a pretty face or vital statistics.
I can't wait to be thin back!
11:56 p.m. - 2004-09-13
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