This thing [*pointing at the screen*] is a piece of shit. I wanted to vent so desperately yesterday and it died. Someone breathes life into it again. Damn Andrew.
Anyway, yesterday was a bad day for me. First, I had to handle that idiot who I used to like, but seriously, guys don't deserve any of my trust no more. Stupid idiot bunch of unfeeling insensitive...hurtful beings! I'm sorry if I have too much things to hate today, but it has been a long time since I let go of all my emotions in this primitive, uncivilised style, so let me be, please!
Firstly, I woke up to see that asshole online. So I was being friendly and I said HI! And then he just told me off about some stupid things about me being a slut or something like that and I was so stunned. I was like, "What have I done?" and he went, "Don't try to act innocent here - cuz you're not. You are just like other girls. You're one big hypocrite....etc" and I was like, "I'm sorry, it's MORNING and I am seriously confused. WHAT?!" and he went around cursing me...and all that shit. Seriously, I have had enough and I was breathing so hard, I could hear myself, so I blocked him.
ASSHOLE. If you wanna hurt someone, WHY ME? He knows that I ADORE him so much and yet he treats me like a punching bag. DAMN IT. Suddenly all my admiration for him disappeared into thin air and I was distraught. I had to have a really hot shower to burn all this unexpected anger that just seeps through my skin. Stupid asshole. Gee, I really like him and why does he treat me this way? I mean, he's seriously the best. He has the looks, the qualities, the talents... *sigh* Okay, whatever, he's still an asshole. I shall not unblock him anymore because I don't deserve his shit. Idiot ass.
Well, I visited my sick grandaunt who lives quite near my place, so yeah, she was suffering from Parkinson's Disease and couldn't move. Oh man, she really looks like my grandmother..who is her elder sister, but still kicking ass! :) God, I'm thankful for blessing such great health to her. (VERY VERY THANKFUL.) So what happened?! There were MANY people in her place, but NONE OF THEM seemed to be so concerned over her.
In fact, they were watching a DVD of a stupid movie that involved ghosts and shit like that. WTF?! All those squealings and yellings might even drive my grandaunt to her grave prematurely! MOTHERFUCKERS! And I was very very pissed. THEY FED HER SUGARY CAKES. That really drove me crazy and I gave a snide remark: "People, if you wanna watch a movie, why not go to a cinema and buy some popcorns too, along the way? And what makes you think cakes will make her get better soon? Please. Stop."
Stupidity. I swear, I could remember everyone giving me this awful face. My mom was not happy with me. She said I was being RUDE. ME? HELLO. They were all SHOUTING AND SCREAMING when the ghosts appeared and that might scared the sick to DEATH. I mean it. It was HORRIFYING, their screams. I was so pissed. And CAKES! WTF. Don't get me started on that. CAKES HAVE NO NUTRIENTS! The sick needs all the vitamins and whatever healthy for them to at least function OKAY, so that they won't get more delirious!
You know what? I HATE my OTHER LONG DISTANCE FAMILY MEMBERS AND RELATIVES. If they're dying, they should not invite me, because I'd be bringing some ghost movies and would be screaming at the top of my lungs. Eat that. I mean, CAKES too. Let you die of diabetes. Ignorant idiots. Maybe that's why you are all fat. You were all bingeing on potato chips in front of the TV, instead of showing care to that sick grandaunt of mine. How inconsiderate.
Seriously, when I would be old later, and got sick, I wouldn't want my family members to be so insensitive and RUDE. Heck, I'm making sure I will be as healthy as I can be, and won't make them come to my house and mourn my death. Stupid idiots.
I don't think I was being rude. If I was, then they were definitely RUDER than I was. At least I spoke my mind yesterday. I has released the big part of the tension.
This is just 0.1% of the total amount of anger I had yesterday... and I think I'm getting over it as soon as I hit the "done!" button. Thank you so much. Peace out. (Ew. What a poser.)
8:10 p.m. - 2004-08-02
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