I'm a little sad today. Though my body's no longer shaking to produce heat in the invisible coldness. Farrah's friend sent her a racist note through his mobile phone. Farrah was unhappy, of course. Both of us are not 100% white - we have like complicated blood mixtures...which never colorize our blood differently. We bleed the same. So...Farrah decided to like, stop talking to her friend, until he realised what he had done.
I just don't understand why we're actually playing the discrimination game. [How many times have we pull ourselves down?] Not only in terms of races... but also other stuff, with others, or with our own vicious selves. Perhaps this is too complicated for my head to think of a perfect reason why we do that. Wish I could really untangle myself from all these knots... but if things were that easy, the word 'complicated' wouldn't have existed in the first place, would it.
Anyway, it was quite a day today :) One of my close friends in class celebrated her birthday! We sang her the birthday song (very creative and *sweet* of us, unintentionally) and she was so touched, she cried.
It was quite a tensed and emotional moment, watching at her breaking down and disintegrating in front of our eyes. I learnt that nobody really had done that to her, other than her family, because she never tells anyone about her birthday but Cindy, Dee, and I. All three of us was teary-eyed. We hugged her and kissed on her cheeks. We wiped those sad tears from her eyes..then we started to giggle at each other.
It was just so magical. That moment. How we could just cry and after a few heart-warming hugs and some soul-comforting kisses, everything seems fixed, if only for a moment or two, for the souls that have never felt the warmth and love from their loved ones.
She doesn't have a lot of friends...she hangs out a lot with us. Reason being, many doesn't want to be with her, because she bears a scar on her right cheek, from a fire accident when she was a kid. She's a smart, intelligent, and a very capable person... she deserves more. Today was her birthday and I was glad we did make it better. Love and true friends are some of those sacred things that no amount of money could buy. It's not just the friendship.. I think we just love each other. We stick together a lot.
She told us she would be celebrating it with her family at Pizza Hut. I was just so happy for her :) I forgotten to get her a present today... but I'm giving her one tomorrow!
I wish to quote one of my male friends:
"I am a nobody, and nobody's perfect, therefore, I am perfect."
Seriously, I find that witty! But I don't think it's realistic. Perfection has never been on anybody's hands - yet.
Today was one heck of a day. I learnt a little bit more about the emotional side of human beings, and the shallow side of it. We have our own little private discrimination wars against ourselves... I know I have. What's with me and my conflicting body images, I am getting more and more confused and about twisted in the head.
But I know I'm okay. Today had been such a rewarding day... Would like to dedicate a song... to the birthday girl, [yes, I just didn't mention her name earlier, to create cheap suspense :)] Vee!
Don't bother looking up for her name in 'cast' page. Basically that page is so redundant. I have too many people to mention, and too little time to write about them, and too little patience for it.
Yes, so the song is titled, "Have You Ever?" by the Offspring. I like this song a lot because it means something... and yeah, here are the lyrics to end off this entry. Vee's a special person, so God (whoever and wherever you are), I pray that you make it the best day you ever planned. Thank You so much.
Falling, I'm fallingHave you ever walked through a room
But it was more like the room passed around you
Like there was a leash around your neck that pulled you through
Have you ever been at someplace
Recognizing everybody's face
Until you realized that there was no one there you knew
Well I know
Some days, my soul's confined and out of mind
Sleep forever
Some days, I'm so outshined and out of time
Have you ever
Falling, I'm falling
Have you ever buried your face in your hands
Cause no one around you understands
Or has the slightest idea what it is that makes you be
Have you ever felt like there was more
Like someone else was keeping score
And what could make you whole was simply out of reach
Well I know
Someday I'll try again and not pretend
This time forever
Someday I'll get it straight but not today
Have you ever
Falling, I'm falling
Some days, my soul's confined and out of mind
Sleep forever
Some days, my darkest friend is me again
Have you ever
Someday I'll try again and not pretend
This time forever
Someday I'll get it straight but not today
Have you ever
When the truth walks away
Everybody stays
Cause the truth about the world is that crime does pay
So if you walk away
Who is gonna stay
Cause I'd like to think the world is a better place
When the truth walks away
Everybody stays
Cause the truth about the world is that crime does pay
So if you walk away
Who is gonna stay
Cause I'd like to make the world be a better place
When the truth walks away
Everybody stays
Cause the truth about the world is that crime does pay
So if you walk away
Who is gonna stay
Cause I'd like to think the world is a better place
I'd like to leave the world as a better place
I'd like to think the world
11:31 p.m. - 2004-07-28
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