I am going to end this....forever says:
ur giving me mixed messages!
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
what?
I am going to end this....forever says:
ur name
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
lol... well.... i love you. happy? lol
I am going to end this....forever says:
haha
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
hey thx for ya note. never thought u would send me one.. that was so sweet of u
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
haha
I am going to end this....forever says:
lol
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
=) so whats up baby?
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
lol
I am going to end this....forever says:
nuthin
I am going to end this....forever says:
u?
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
well.. mischief.
I am going to end this....forever says:
lol
I am going to end this....forever says:
o oh
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
oh oh
I am going to end this....forever says:
lol
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
so ur anorexic now?
I am going to end this....forever says:
no
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
so what's with the entries and all that?
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
hey
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
r u there or..?
I am going to end this....forever says:
lol
I am going to end this....forever says:
soz
I am going to end this....forever says:
i 4got 2 reply
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
lol
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
so r tryin to lose weight?
I am going to end this....forever says:
at the moment no, but normally yea
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
thats weird, considering that ur not anorexic and stuff
I am going to end this....forever says:
lol
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
im sure your skinny
I am going to end this....forever says:
no
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
r u sure? ppl that cut themselves.. i think they spendhours on that than on food
I am going to end this....forever says:
?
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
like, i dont think u have the appetite to eat when ur like all bloody
I am going to end this....forever says:
haha
I am going to end this....forever says:
well normally i dnt eat much, but at da moment im a lottle gy
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
oh..okay..
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
why do you think we;re like this
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
why are we so fucked up
I am going to end this....forever says:
i don tknow
I am going to end this....forever says:
theres so many people who are fucked up now
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
no, seriously, some of them are just for a while, but we've been like this for years
I am going to end this....forever says:
i kno!
I am going to end this....forever says:
and then they throw words like anorexic and depressed around
I am going to end this....forever says:
and im like fuck u, u dnt no th emeaning of the words!
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
yeah i really hate it. i mean it, like really really hate. i feel like slapping them on their faces. it really irks me
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
im like, 'you dont know what your talking about!'
I am going to end this....forever says:
i kno!
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
geez. im like, 'ive been here for more than 3 years. you're like, a day and your feeling dead'
I am going to end this....forever says:
yea!
I am going to end this....forever says:
or some1 breaks up w/ deyre bf/gf and suddenly their gonna kill themselves!
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
yeah! im like, you're gonna kill yourself over a guy?! well, im just gonna leave them talking about it.. like ifnoring them cuz i cannot be bothered
I am going to end this....forever says:
yea
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
then again, im gonna ask u..what makes us so fucked up. what is becoming of us..
I am going to end this....forever says:
i dont know
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
and guess what? my dad just came to me, saying that hes so disappointed in me and he even said, "whats becoming of you? why are you like this"
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
im like, "YES YES GET OUT."
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
im so upset
I am going to end this....forever says:
I am going to end this....forever says:
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
i used to be the person who makes him so proud..and now im a let down..i cant take this.
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
thank you..
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
well..can i just like talk to you about this..if u dont mind.
I am going to end this....forever says:
yea go 4 ur life
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
i feel so so tired of life. its not like i am facing anything, but i just realise that im totally like a puppet
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
everyone expects me to be perfect but im not
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
i am not obliged to make mistakes
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
i feel so not human
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
i think its better off dead but im like, trying to be strong
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
resisting everything.. just ceoncentating on improving myself..
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
and ppl still think im taking it to slow
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
and that im being an ass
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
i feel like stuffing some apples inside their mouth
I am going to end this....forever says:
gogogo
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
cant they shut up
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
and i dont have fun..
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
i stop playing with toys at 7 bcuz they dont want to buy me them anymore
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
because i mess them up
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
i break them and tear them apart
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
in frustrattion... but suddenly evertything has changed
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
they just leave me alone bcuz my lil brother was born
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
and im left with myself
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
and all the expectations they have on me
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
i thoyght that was what everyone waslike
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
but i realise thats not
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
people have their family to support them
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
but we dont have it
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
at least orphans have guardians
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
but we dont
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
were basically lost
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
with ourselves and everything
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
all i want is to be left alone if they dont care about me
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
but they dont
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
instead they keep making the old wounds bleed again
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
i cry so many nights but i know nothing will be better
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
its just a way to relieve the tension thats been building up
I am going to end this....forever says:
ur lucky
I am going to end this....forever says:
i cant cry
I am going to end this....forever says:
u stil hav that
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
isnt it better? you feel much stronger. i feel like a weakling
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
like a helpless idiot
I am going to end this....forever says:
no
I am going to end this....forever says:
coz i hav only one release
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
yeah..u cut yourself.. and thats a big thing.. kind of a brave thing.. me? i dont dare to.. i dont wanna mutilate myself..
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
im too scaredy.. too fearful
I am going to end this....forever says:
no, ur 2 strong
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
why am i? i dont get it
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
i cry.
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
i m actually letting ppl push me ard, because i know i hate making stuff bigger than it is.. like, i hate to think that people are killing people inwars, just because none of them wants to compromise.
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
i realise that the world will be a much better place.. if someone just gives in and let go.. you know.
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
but it takes a lot.
I am going to end this....forever says:
yea
I am going to end this....forever says:
takes too much
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
esp when you've been doing it since forever, and nothing has been changed. the world is still this fucked up, and what youre doing is just not working. i just feel like hurting others.. but i dont want to, because i experience pain and hurt like everyone else..and its not gonna help in anyway
I am going to end this....forever says:
i just wish it would end
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
yeah. like, end all this ...and send me straight to either hell or heaven, but my best bet would be hell
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
like, why prolong all these pain
I am going to end this....forever says:
no, like make it stop, and keep living
I am going to end this....forever says:
like get better
i hate you. [no, i don't] says:
yeah..... i badly badly want to be happy.. not just happy, but HAPPY like when i was a kid..
I think I'm feeling a little Micheal Jackson emotion here. but obviously, he has more hurt.
8:34 p.m. - 2004-07-23
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