With every minute I cycle on that bike, I feel much stronger, physically and emotionally. As from now, it has been approximately a week since I binged and purged. It feels so great, wonderful and phenomenally stress-relieving. Working out in the gym is one of my favourite pastimes. Not only does it revitalises my mind... it takes away of some emotional tension I have.... and help me cope with my eating disorder and self-image... it's all good. I love being active.
Basketball practice was great. I had so much fun chatting with my friends more than bouncing those orange balls, of course. We talked about guys (what else?), how bitchy our teachers were, and how much we would love to run away from practice and hang out in a cafe and sipping hot mocha.
The air was breezy tonight... and I wish for someone to snuggle with. Cuddles. To keep my body warm and make me feel safe. I'm feeling rather tired and my muscles are feeling achy... my whole body seems to float in the air... and I have not eaten my dinner. All throughout the day, I managed to squeeze in a glass of apple juice, a sandwich, a can of Coke Light for a caffeine burst, and a Kitkat. I desperately need nutrition. Both for physically...
and emotionally.
It would be lie if a girl says she doesn't need a guy in her life.
I want a guy. On any normal typical day. But right now, I just need one. Need.
7:58 p.m. - 2004-06-30
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