The time is 4 plus and I'm here. From school, to home, to the computer after so many trials. Why do I keep believing that I am loved when I'm not by her? Does motherly love makes you blind as well? Hey, that's so not romantic.
"Amanda, I hate you. I cannot wait till the day you die. I have had enough of you. When you grow up alone, you're going to die. It's either you or me. Your sight makes me want to kick you in the butt. Now get away from my face and START CRACKING!!!"
That, from my mom. Haha, I have learned to laugh painfully at it. Nah, she loves me. So I set aside my magazine (which she bought for ME) and went to the bathroom to clean my shoes. Yes. My shoes. The ones she's NOT wearing, but me. She's really anal, I hate it.
And yes, I have no curfew. Yippers? No. It's because I cannot go OUT anymore. No more curfew, I am done, and about to rot to death if I see her angry face again. The monster hates my face, but she doesn't want her prisoner to go out. The greatest form of household torture.
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In school, a lot of happy things happened. I managed to solve probably SE7EN intellectual algebra problems! Wow, I remembered feeling so productive!
That's #1. So here are the things that happened today that were VERY significant.
2. The Math Head (aka the teacher that hates me) told the class a lame joke and no one laughed at it = very very GOOD.
3. My brocolli!!! It's ended up in a pool of piping hot coconut milk! = yummy but weird. And you wonder why I eat weird foods. I got that genes from my monster.
4. My period starts. I stained my bed. = dangerous.
5. I tried counting the number of magazines I have, but lost count = no comments.
6. Farrah SKIPPED classes today. = very very funny.
She said she would not be hanging around with me much anymore, because she "needs to get more serious".
Seriously serious. I'm calling her now.
4:41 p.m. - 2004-06-24
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