People talk shit, it's incredible how they can go on talking. The truth is, I don't have any problems with myself. I have my self-esteem and it's not down-low. I'm doing perfect. I am bulimic, but it has nothing to do with me losing my self-esteem blah blah blah. I'm happy and I'm good. See, I don't even need to keep it as a secret: I am bulimic, no doubt about it.
I think it's just freaky that I think I'm doing real fine now. I'm happy, I am not as intensed as before... each time I binge, then purge, I feel the release of stress... it's stupid, but that's how I feel. You don't know, because you are not bulimic. Oh wait, you DON'T know because you're nothing like me. So fuck off, don't interfere in my life and make conclusions that are stupid.
Go and mind your own business. I'm 15, and I can think for myself. I am well aware what I'm doing is harming myself, but even if I die, I don't expect you to put garlands of flowers on my coffin. All I want you to do, is to just leave me alone in my own world, with a few of my loved ones...who I have given nothing but my all.
It's all about self-accomplishment and self-fulfillment. Sadly, I think I'm getting nearer and nearer to death as days go by, and it's fine.
Like what Gavin says, fuck what everyone is talking about. I'm just writing here, to tell everyone, that I am perfect the way I am. I'm just really into troubles... it's thrilling. I'm depressed, and I have mood swings. Nobody refers me to a psychiatrist but a doctor but too bad I cannot afford the fee, so I'm just gonna be like this forever.
And I'm okay about this. End entry. I'm off to watch a late night movie with my chocolate popcorn in hand. tata.
12:22 a.m. - 2004-06-13
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