Today I realise how much I love poetry. Maybe that's freedom of speech. Maybe that's how I feel free.
I don't like talking, I guess. I might make someone really happy, or risk making others sad. I need to take risks. I don't know if risks are worth it.
Anorexia, today, I thank you. On the other shitty days, sorry, but I will condemn you.
I read so many Anti-bush and anti-kerry statements today..and it really opens up my mind how concerned people are of the world today.
I am. But never a fan of reading abusive, unfair comments, I guess. I thought votes are meant to be in private. Why are people revealing them, cuz it has the potential to spark off a political argument they may not be prepared to have.
Politics is dirty, but we won't know unless we're in it.
But it's already confirmed that there will be unnecessary deaths. It seems inavoidable.
At a small scale, let me say it this way. If someone were to throw a stone at me, I'd probably won't do the same to that someone. But if he does it to my brother, hell, I am not letting it rest. I WILL FIGHT. even if I might lose.
You see, it's probably human nature. Revenge will always be there. Fighting for something you love and believe in, will always be the way most of us take.
Maybe it's just us being human. Maybe we should let it rest. I'm sure Bush is a strong person mentally. To be able to live with so many strangers (like, half the world? 1 billion of people making chimp faces of you) hating you will make me commit suicide I guess. But I don't know. Like I said, I "guess".
If I were a president, and my country is being bombed, I would probably think it would be a favor I'm doing for those dead people's family to bomb the other.
Gee, but it's so wrong.
But if I don't do that, you'd accuse me of not being "defensive" and letting my people die in vain.
In the end, Bush can only say to himself, "Damn it, I can never be right, and I can never be wrong. I know I am doing fine. Hate me, I don't care"
Maybe that's a lesson learnt from reading those anti messages. I shall not really make such a big deal about freedom of speech. It probably should not exist if it inflicts so much emotional pain. If freedom of speech hurts my family, I'm not gonna let the abuser down, just like that. Insult me. But don't touch my loved ones.
I guess people should learn to respect, take in, give in, and compromise. It ain't easy, but probably possible.
And this is from a 15 year old girl. Feel free to say I have not lived long enough. Feel free to say that I'm wrong. But remember, not all educateds are smart, and the stupids can be right.
But my conscience is clear.
I want peace, but I won't make peace if my parents are killed by a murderer. I want that murderer to get killed. But I have to find the right murderer. And proof must be there.
There is no use accusing and blaming, and stating points without giving any reasons or evidences.
Oh well. Contradiction.. ain't we all? I know I am.
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I am just sad that our world can never be happy. Fairy tales isn't what reality is, and yet kids are raised to believe in this ..freaking lies. I, too, used to believe in Prince Charming and that.. :) but it's a lie. Santa Claus.. oh well.. I believe in that until the age of um. 14? I am not going to hide it, thats the truth. :D I laugh when I think about how stupid I am. Some kids already know that when they are 8. I am so slow :P
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Today I cut my hair. I love it. The girl who cut my hair, was so sweet! Her short, cropped hair was like, gray and blue in color. Very funky. I just love her so much. I don't cut my hair anything regular than once in a year. Cuz I want to keep my hair long. But next year... I wish.. I pray I have her.
She's so awesome. It's so nice to see a hair stylist who is so smart, dedicated and so open and sharing to share some hair tips :)
So many happy things happened today. I'd be lying to say that Im not happy :) I truly am. But I will also be lying to say that I am HAPPY after reading about so many sadness on the net, especially after the election.
Meh. We are so confusing.
Oh yes, maybe by writing this piece of incident that happened today, I would be reminded of how peaceful us three siblings are. :P im so happy.
I was using the computer as always..and it has to be shared by four people. My mom, doesnt know anything about computer..she doesn't have the interest anyway. So my brothers wanted to use it as well. It was about 2.30pm and my elder brother said, "Let me use at 3.30pm." And I said okay. And then my ickle bro came home and *KNOCKED ON MY DOOR* (oh my god..when he was small, he used to just go inside, like he was boss and I scolded him so many times about being respectful and everything.. it's making me happy that what i did when he was small actually helped. I thought he would never listen.. I was wrong..and I am so freaking happy I was!) and asked for the computer and I said, "Sorry, the big brother has asked for it first. You have to wait."
I was expecting us three to engage in some wars of word abd abusive language. But we maintained *peace*! lol. it makes me happy. Al and her sister, Amelia, will never give in or have the patience to wait.
Gee, this makes me feel so happy as a sister. :D I am so proud of my small brother. I love him so much...for respecting me.
I'm so happy.
Okay, I'm off to read some more lovely poems.. Really, human beings are such smart ass.
AND I ALREADY MAILED TO RADIOGURL!
(that makes me happy. Now I have nothing else, but probably write more about happiness tomorrow.)
Beats eating food and vomiting them out anytime :D
8:22 p.m. - 2004-11-08
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