freakymandy's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- random stuff Gavin-Joel has this on his diary, so I want to make mine too. All the thoughts that are running through my mind... not really like 100 things about me. It's just random. ----------- I think I'm looking and feeling at my best in a long time My self-esteem has gone up a little I am starting to like both girls and guys I blush so easily, you can tell if I like you or not I can never cook porridge I think I'm a person with substance I have few trusted friends and tons of just friends... no enemies but some jealous friends Some friends try to put me down indirectly but I never let them do that to me I'm becoming more of a hermit I have a small pinkish peach moth on my wall now I have few friends who are males Sometimes I think guys are too loud and fake Why do guys like to act macho and cool all the time, when they know they are human and have sensitive feelings too? I'm listening to Yellowcard's Only One now and I feel like weeping I cry all the time I'm not weak, but I'm quite emotional and vulnerable I appear to be a strong person when I'm not People underestimate me I like to socialise with people who are older than me (around 18-25) I'm scared about the future I sleep half-naked I hate to pick up the phones but I enjoy phonecalls I attract phedophiles I check girls out more than the guys I am quite of an orthorexic I allow myself to eat 1 naughty food item a day Today I had a Ferrero Rocher Sometimes I dream about sex and I like it I love cats I love animals more than human I think the whole of mankind deserves to be punished for abusing animals, the environment and themselves I deserve to be punished for wasting paper because I use a lot of them I love hugs My clothes (I don't have many of them) are mostly black and skirts Have I mentioned that I hate jeans? I only have 1 pair of shoes and it's broken My dad says it's unneccesary to have one, and I'm suffering now wearing my mom's who's a size 6 and I'm size 7 I don't own track shoes though I run My clothes are three years old I think I am not privileged compared to the average girl I don't own a mobile I can't ride a bike I can't swim well I am afraid of hurting myself All my life, I only fell about 7 or 8 times I'm scared of blood I love poetic languages I love literature because it focusses on feelings I hate Shakespeare I can't read maps I over-analyse and think too far into the future I am too careful, I always watch where I'm walking so I won't step on anything with the potential to hurt I like tall guys who are gentlemanly Guys who have a lot to say attracts me Talkative people makes me happy Vacuous people turns me off When no one's looking, I take my baby cousin's milk bottle and suck on it I love skirts I love male toilets I can't appreciate "music" like Beethoven or the likes I sleep all the time during classical concerts I love to read autobiographies and fitness/health/nutrition books I memorize the calories of food I've eaten I'm obsessed I LOVE NUTS 3 things that I love the most are my family, my books and magazines and my room I treasure my friends too much I love my friends I have never betrayed anyone I am always giving and don't like taking I just love experimenting I'm my own guinea pig I always try to find out if something is true or not I don't really believe everything I've learnt I think some science theories are wack I think scientists are not necessary now I love my nails and fingers I'm gonna love my job..making sure I will! I'm tired now so I'm going off! 1:25 a.m. - 2004-10-16 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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