This week is so full of drama shit. First, I actually binged and purged twice. They just seemed to be the right thing to do after downing too much calories. As I am known for my irresponsible acts, I don't want to be responsible for my own occasional bad eatings. But it was okay.. it'd be long time before I could binge again.
I'm recovering and I won't be bulimic or anorexic anymore. I'm just trying to focus on healthy foods now, and though it's quite similar to orthorexia, it's not.
I just don't feel good eating too much "bad stuff" that can be as innocent as white bread or cereal or bananas. High glycemic index - I'm scared. Sometimes I plan my food ahead and think of excuses beforehand in case I'm stuck in a compromising situations... gee.
Al asked me what were her three best and worst traits and I said, "First, you are such a nice person to be with. Second, you are just so warm. Third, you're very secure with yourself. Bad traits..ehmn..you can be too hyper, second, you can get too happy, it's irritating sometimes, and thirdly, you...you are just too nice!"
Al: "What?! Why can't I be too nice and too happy??!"
Me: "People have depressing times and looking at you smiling from ears to ears make me wanna kick your ass! Okay, so how about mine?"
Haha, of course I'm curious to know what she'll say.
Al: "Oh. Lemme say the good things about you first. First, you're always cheerful...ALWAYS! You smile all the time and laugh all the time! Second, you're easy to talk to..very easy and very easy to feel comfortable with you and thirdly..uhm.. oh yes, you are VERY DIRTY-MINDED!" *cackles of laughters*
Me: "What? I'm NOT dirty-minded..where did you get that from?"
Okay sorry sorry. I do have one dirty mind. I'm just trying to act like I'm denying it when I'm not, but I don't see what makes it a GOOD trait.
Al: Bad traits about you...first, you are whiny. Second, you are too over analytical and always read too much in between the lines, and lastly.. You are too healthy!
Of course I said I was not. I don't know a whine is as small as saying, "Aww.. I'm tiredddd..." To me, I thought it was just expressing what I was feeling inside. Oh well :) About the healthy part..yeah, I can only be too healthy or hazardous. Purging and bingeing is not healthy but if I take both those stupid habits out, I can be very healthy.
Complicatedness.
Speaking about Al, my fish, Spaghetti Pizza is having fun eating tubifex worms.
Worms. Urgh.
Yes, NO MORE EXAMS!!! Half of those I took on were killers and I'm gonna flunk in at least two subjects.
Stay tuned.
12:05 p.m. - 2004-10-13
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